I've had another difficult day at the Care Home again. Mum seems to have now stopped thinking rationally, which I am told is a symptom of her dementia worsening. She had her usual list of complaints ready when I went in today. The latest is she wants the key to her drugs cupboard, she wants a bolt put on the door of her room, she wants her TV repositioned which would mean a trailing cable across the floor and she wants the home to stop locking the front door. She had been told that these requests are unfortunately not possible and it has been explained why. She says she understands but then she says it's wrong, it's not fair and that the Home don't know what they are doing.
Her next complaint is that one of her friends didn't go to visit last Friday as usual. The friend did explain many weeks ago that she was going away for a long weekend for a family wedding and would visit another day instead. Mum says she remembers about the wedding but she is furious and says her friend is being selfish and has let her down.
Dad shares a room with Mum at the Care Home. Dad is physically frail but his mind has seemed OK. He's been telling me for a while now that he's fed up with Mum's constant grumbling and all he wants at his time of life is some peace and quiet. He's started taking out his hearing aids so he doesn't have to listen to her. Today he tells me he's had enough and he wants me to get him moved to a different room or preferably to a different Care Home.
I feel a mixture of emotions. I'm sad about Mum's illness, I'm worried about what is the right thing for my Dad, but mainly I'm angry with myself. I have so little to cope with compared with others who care for their loved ones 24/7, but I still don't seem to be able to deal with a visit there without ending up upset or stressed over something.
Her next complaint is that one of her friends didn't go to visit last Friday as usual. The friend did explain many weeks ago that she was going away for a long weekend for a family wedding and would visit another day instead. Mum says she remembers about the wedding but she is furious and says her friend is being selfish and has let her down.
Dad shares a room with Mum at the Care Home. Dad is physically frail but his mind has seemed OK. He's been telling me for a while now that he's fed up with Mum's constant grumbling and all he wants at his time of life is some peace and quiet. He's started taking out his hearing aids so he doesn't have to listen to her. Today he tells me he's had enough and he wants me to get him moved to a different room or preferably to a different Care Home.
I feel a mixture of emotions. I'm sad about Mum's illness, I'm worried about what is the right thing for my Dad, but mainly I'm angry with myself. I have so little to cope with compared with others who care for their loved ones 24/7, but I still don't seem to be able to deal with a visit there without ending up upset or stressed over something.