I have a dilemma in that I do not want any invasive treatment, or anything that will advance my Alzheimers. I am remarkably aware of what is happening to me, I may not remember what I ate or watched on TV, but I am aware when I get things wrong, as I inevitably do.
Afraid I panic when I suddenly realise that what happens physically is also due almost certainly to the Alzheimers. I am eight yrs into it according to memory clinic, I am also seventy six and my daughter is my only carer, whilst I want to live as long as possible, as I am, I don't want too inflict on my daughter how I would be, not knowing her and other family further into it. When I was diagnosed three yrs ago, my instant reaction was I hoped something else would take me, before I got too that stage!
I have found out by accident that what is happening re the last part of my bowel is neurological not physical
The memory clinic is aware of the constipation and I can see now that it was no surprise to them, I attend again just before Christmas.The swallowing is also due almost certainly too the Alzheimers. It would seem that my physical condition is deteriorating faster that my memory!
Afraid I am not religious in anyway so feel I must cope the best I can, I'm very sorry to have worried anyone, but here is the only place I can say how things really are.
I just read Norms post, made me cry, but well said Norms, as always, and can't thank you enough everyone. Xxxxxx