Does anyone else feel like they have pressed the pause button on their life?
It has struck me that my life is in limbo and will be until the inevitable happens to mum.
Mum is somewhere around the midstages of Alzheimers at home she is ok (kind of, there's lots of imaginings, confusion etc) but she cannot go out and about on her own.
Mum cannot remember our address and feels no connection to our house, sadly she can get lost, she proved it last week so no chances will be taken from now on.
It's selfish I know, but I'm wondering how long this will go on and what I'm doing to my future. I gave up full time employment to be at home with mum, I regret that decision and at the same time don't, even though that makes no sense. I did what was needed, but when this is over will I be able to find a job ( I'm in my mid 40s now), I have a company pension from my last employer, but will it be enough? Am I going to struggle because I left the job market? Have I been very stupid and sacrificed my future security?
There are no answers I know as none of us has a crystal ball and I'm well aware how selfish I'm being when mum cannot help being ill, but does anyone else feel the they have paused their life and cannot plan for a future?
Lavender45
It has struck me that my life is in limbo and will be until the inevitable happens to mum.
Mum is somewhere around the midstages of Alzheimers at home she is ok (kind of, there's lots of imaginings, confusion etc) but she cannot go out and about on her own.
Mum cannot remember our address and feels no connection to our house, sadly she can get lost, she proved it last week so no chances will be taken from now on.
It's selfish I know, but I'm wondering how long this will go on and what I'm doing to my future. I gave up full time employment to be at home with mum, I regret that decision and at the same time don't, even though that makes no sense. I did what was needed, but when this is over will I be able to find a job ( I'm in my mid 40s now), I have a company pension from my last employer, but will it be enough? Am I going to struggle because I left the job market? Have I been very stupid and sacrificed my future security?
There are no answers I know as none of us has a crystal ball and I'm well aware how selfish I'm being when mum cannot help being ill, but does anyone else feel the they have paused their life and cannot plan for a future?
Lavender45