Do you ever want to EXPLODE but don't because you will be yelled at, etc.? Would I be better to do so or am I better to hold it all in (normal life for me for 69 years). Then I wonder why my family can't tell how bad off I am. I am an actress (when I'm capable, I should win an Oscar, I'm that good!) Or if I can and do act okay, is that good for anyone? Or am I really okay and the dementia doesn't really exist? I am a million times worse than any family member knows. And hubby doesn't want anything to do with it so he leaves me alone daily when Sundowners worsens. His dementia (which is not dx'd and he knows doesn't even exist) is worsening but he has been so flaky for so many years that friends and family just accepts him. Me, they will not accept so I have to be strong and only fall apart when alone (getting less and less possible) which is much of the time and I'm not sure, I can go on any longer. I do tell them, I do give them print-outs, no help at all. Sorry, I just can't go on like this any longer.