It was not my intention to make anyone feel inadequate and I'm sorry if my post came across that way.
It was only in the final year of supporting my wife with AD that I purchased a computer. The purpose was to join an AD website intending to share and learn from others supporting spouses at home on a one to one basis 24/7. My search proved unsuccessful and I was informed that it was impossible. When I explained that I was doing just that for a number of years I was invited to tell our story. It was a US site and they titled it: Padraig.... My Story......My Wife.... and interestingly enough I've just Goggled it and there it still was.
I'm only too well aware why it is impossible for most people to care for a loved one at home and I've mentioned the reasons in my book. There are many and varied circumstances why it is impossible to keep a LO at home. As for feeling guilty, who does not feel guilt? It's an emotion like any other; sadness, happy, anger, frustration, fear etc. If one does not feel guilt they have a major problem. We get over these emotions in time.
There was one advantage I had, when it came to caring; I was well trained from an early age. Among the kids 'serving time' with me, a number of us were nobodies child and therefore required we to water, feed and look after the livestock seven days a week, all year round. All the other kids were left out on licence to their parents, at Christmas, Easter, Summer holidays and the odd weekend.
Gringo, Now I'm in my eighties and each day and night I live with great pain after cancer surgery. It is very doubtful that I could have looked after my wife in my present circumstances. Also I did go through the 'putting my wife away' stage, as she once remarked, so I experienced the heartbreak.
I was privileged to have shared those final years with my wife, in addition to learning so very much about AD. As a result I wanted to share my experiences with others by offering a free download of my book. It covers how I managed; loss of weight, refusing to eat, rigidity, seizures, loss of speech and movement. Just about every subject that is raised on the site. I'm no one special, I came from the very bottom of the heap, but I have a voice. Once again my apology for any offence caused, none was intended.