Hello
My mum has Mixed Dementia and went into care about 6 weeks ago when my dad was unable to look after her any more.
I went to see her on Thursday and she seemed in quite good spirits. She had had her hair done and was even wearing a bit of lipstick. However, every time I visit, I leave feeling utterly broken, regardless of how she is. I cry all the way home, and I've been crying non stop for 48 hours - I fell really unwell. I know logically that she is in the best place and she is having good food and visits most days from her friends, but the family dynamic has fundamentally shifted and I'm struggling to come to terms with it. My brother lives 5 hours away in South Wales, and my Dad is on his own in the bungalow, and I'm one hour away from my Dad. I feel as though the foundations have been taken away from me and I no longer have the security of "home", because my Mum signified "home" more than anything else. I live on my own, and find going back to an empty house really hard. All I can think about is my Mum in the care home, and my Dad on his own in the bungalow. It feels so unnatural and it dominates my thoughts from dusk til dawn.
Any words of advice/encouragement would be gratefully received on how I can manage this better and not be consumed with it.
My mum has Mixed Dementia and went into care about 6 weeks ago when my dad was unable to look after her any more.
I went to see her on Thursday and she seemed in quite good spirits. She had had her hair done and was even wearing a bit of lipstick. However, every time I visit, I leave feeling utterly broken, regardless of how she is. I cry all the way home, and I've been crying non stop for 48 hours - I fell really unwell. I know logically that she is in the best place and she is having good food and visits most days from her friends, but the family dynamic has fundamentally shifted and I'm struggling to come to terms with it. My brother lives 5 hours away in South Wales, and my Dad is on his own in the bungalow, and I'm one hour away from my Dad. I feel as though the foundations have been taken away from me and I no longer have the security of "home", because my Mum signified "home" more than anything else. I live on my own, and find going back to an empty house really hard. All I can think about is my Mum in the care home, and my Dad on his own in the bungalow. It feels so unnatural and it dominates my thoughts from dusk til dawn.
Any words of advice/encouragement would be gratefully received on how I can manage this better and not be consumed with it.