Hi,
This is my first message and in a way I feel really strange posting it now.
Both my parents had dementia. Mum was 58 year old when she first showed the signs of Alzheimers. She died in 1998, after
13 years of the illness.
Ded was then diagnosed with Alzheimer's five years ago. We cared for him until he needed full time care (still struggling with that decision) Dad died on 1st August 2007. That's why I feel a little strange posting now.
But the truth is I am really struggling at the moment. I miss him so much and feel so guilty about lots of things. This has brought up alot of feelings I buried about mum. I feel guilty about the relief that is was over!!
I feel so down and then angry. Dementia is such a cruel illness and why is it that the effects carry on so long?
Sorry it seems so negative, but that is the way I am feeling. I can't share this with my family as they have lived through the last 20 years with me and need to move on.
I know it will get easier with time, but now is hard.
Even if no one reads this I feel better writing it down.
thanks
Doyley
This is my first message and in a way I feel really strange posting it now.
Both my parents had dementia. Mum was 58 year old when she first showed the signs of Alzheimers. She died in 1998, after
13 years of the illness.
Ded was then diagnosed with Alzheimer's five years ago. We cared for him until he needed full time care (still struggling with that decision) Dad died on 1st August 2007. That's why I feel a little strange posting now.
But the truth is I am really struggling at the moment. I miss him so much and feel so guilty about lots of things. This has brought up alot of feelings I buried about mum. I feel guilty about the relief that is was over!!
I feel so down and then angry. Dementia is such a cruel illness and why is it that the effects carry on so long?
Sorry it seems so negative, but that is the way I am feeling. I can't share this with my family as they have lived through the last 20 years with me and need to move on.
I know it will get easier with time, but now is hard.
Even if no one reads this I feel better writing it down.
thanks
Doyley