I guess I knew the question would raise its head and I know mum has confused me with her late sister before now, but this morning she literally had no idea who I am. On top of that cannot believe that we live together, understandable if I'm a stranger. I've told mum my name and that I'm her daughter, but she cannot accept what I'm saying, she isn't upset as such, but totally confused. To mum I'm not even a familiar face!
We have had three solid weeks of asking for her mum, a little over a week ago she could not remember her name or address. These things worry me. I've got an id disc which she now has on a chain around her neck and her days of going out unaccompanied seem to be over. I know it's just the way it is, but its very sad at the same time.
We went shopping on Saturday and I foolishly in hindsight let mum put the shopping away. The frozen roasted potatoes were defrosted in the fridge by the time I came across them and the sandwich cake which was meant for some visitors on Sunday was frozen solid despite the words not suitable for freezing.
As I've said before, mum has been on a steep decline, or at least it feels that way to me. Mum has recently started taking Aricept, I know its meant to help, but can it have exactly the opposite effect and increase confusion?
I guess I am feeling sorry for myself. I had no idea how hard caring for someone with dementia can be, or how even small things like the ruined roast potatoes cause me so much frustration. I am not the most tolerant person on the planet. I said nothing to mum about food I had to bin. It wouldn't have helped her or me to bring it up, but at the moment I'm full of self pity, my ability to adapt and understand seems to be constantly outstripped by dementia.
We have had three solid weeks of asking for her mum, a little over a week ago she could not remember her name or address. These things worry me. I've got an id disc which she now has on a chain around her neck and her days of going out unaccompanied seem to be over. I know it's just the way it is, but its very sad at the same time.
We went shopping on Saturday and I foolishly in hindsight let mum put the shopping away. The frozen roasted potatoes were defrosted in the fridge by the time I came across them and the sandwich cake which was meant for some visitors on Sunday was frozen solid despite the words not suitable for freezing.
As I've said before, mum has been on a steep decline, or at least it feels that way to me. Mum has recently started taking Aricept, I know its meant to help, but can it have exactly the opposite effect and increase confusion?
I guess I am feeling sorry for myself. I had no idea how hard caring for someone with dementia can be, or how even small things like the ruined roast potatoes cause me so much frustration. I am not the most tolerant person on the planet. I said nothing to mum about food I had to bin. It wouldn't have helped her or me to bring it up, but at the moment I'm full of self pity, my ability to adapt and understand seems to be constantly outstripped by dementia.