Today was the first time I visited mum where there was no recognition at all. In the last two months she has declined quite steeply. She will no longer weight bear , is refusing food and somewhere inside I saw the light had gone off in her eyes.
Despite my years of knowledge and experience of dementia, nothing in the world prepares you for looking at a loved one and realising they have no clue who you are.
I’ve been thinking a lot about The Long Goodbye campaign, I have no pearls of wisdom on that score but I do know that without this forum I would be feeling so alone right now. I am grateful to those who have gone before me and sad for those who will follow. I used to advise carers at the beginning of their dementia journey not to read too far into the future as they would scare themselves silly but that when the time came it would be beneficial to know that others have stood where they are.
And so it begins, this end stage that has no limits or time frame. I’m dreading it if I’m honest but here we go.
( NB the home are making regular checks for infection, mum can still swallow and will take fluid, she will allow a small amount of food , usually in the evening but needs to be fed. The carers and nursing staff are amazing. )
Despite my years of knowledge and experience of dementia, nothing in the world prepares you for looking at a loved one and realising they have no clue who you are.
I’ve been thinking a lot about The Long Goodbye campaign, I have no pearls of wisdom on that score but I do know that without this forum I would be feeling so alone right now. I am grateful to those who have gone before me and sad for those who will follow. I used to advise carers at the beginning of their dementia journey not to read too far into the future as they would scare themselves silly but that when the time came it would be beneficial to know that others have stood where they are.
And so it begins, this end stage that has no limits or time frame. I’m dreading it if I’m honest but here we go.
( NB the home are making regular checks for infection, mum can still swallow and will take fluid, she will allow a small amount of food , usually in the evening but needs to be fed. The carers and nursing staff are amazing. )
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