I registered on here last year but didn`t get much opportunity to post.
I was full time carer to my mother from May 2007, I gave up work to make sure she was safe and comfortable at home. She was surrounded by love and all the family but all the caring was done by myself. We had a nurse who came in once a month to bring medication and do the odd memory test. An OT visited once. Other than that we were on our own.
Mam also had leukemia and having had a 2nd cycle of chemo in May she became ill three weeks later with a chest infection. She was admitted to hospital, got a UTI and died 6 days later.
Caring for mam was my whole life for 3 years, well officially for 3 years. I stayed in hospital with her for her final 6 days only returning home for an hour a day to shower and to feed the pets - I caught sleep when I could on the chair next to her bed.
I held her hand as she took her last breath.
Now, 4 weeks later I am totally lost. There is a big void in my life and I don`t know what to do with myself. I need to get a job as we lived on mam's pension, my late father's teaching pension and attendance allowance - obviously all these payments have stopped.
I don't feel emotionally strong enough to start back at work but needs must but at the same time I think getting back out there into the world may help.
Thanks for reading my post. I don't expect any advice or waving of magic wands, I just needed to get this all off my chest.
I was full time carer to my mother from May 2007, I gave up work to make sure she was safe and comfortable at home. She was surrounded by love and all the family but all the caring was done by myself. We had a nurse who came in once a month to bring medication and do the odd memory test. An OT visited once. Other than that we were on our own.
Mam also had leukemia and having had a 2nd cycle of chemo in May she became ill three weeks later with a chest infection. She was admitted to hospital, got a UTI and died 6 days later.
Caring for mam was my whole life for 3 years, well officially for 3 years. I stayed in hospital with her for her final 6 days only returning home for an hour a day to shower and to feed the pets - I caught sleep when I could on the chair next to her bed.
I held her hand as she took her last breath.
Now, 4 weeks later I am totally lost. There is a big void in my life and I don`t know what to do with myself. I need to get a job as we lived on mam's pension, my late father's teaching pension and attendance allowance - obviously all these payments have stopped.
I don't feel emotionally strong enough to start back at work but needs must but at the same time I think getting back out there into the world may help.
Thanks for reading my post. I don't expect any advice or waving of magic wands, I just needed to get this all off my chest.