I am facing a difficult period at the moment, and just need to reach out and share.
My husband is terminally ill with prostate cancer but still able to walk about with a frame and not in any pain.
He also has AD reasonably advanced now, and is incontinent.
He has not really known me for a long time now, but is still aware tht Jeannette lives here somewhere, generally upstairs ( although we live in a bungalow). He knows he is married to Jeannette most of the time, but sometimes thinks he is married still to his first wife although he knows they have split up!!!
Anyway he has now decided he quite fancies the new carer he has ( ME). He is leading up to somewhere I do not want to go!!
My husband would never have betrayed me, he knows how much that would hurt me as my first husband did just that. My husband is/was an honourable man .
I am finding now I am only relaxed when he is asleep or when I am out.
I need the strength from somewhere and the ability to divert him.
I have thought of saying that members of staff are not allowed to become too attached to the " patients" . Emotionally I feel I am at breaking point though, this is what I am finding it hard to deal with.
It is possible I have given him the wrong impression as sometimes when I am washing him and dressing him I do kiss his neck. It seems so awful not to be able to show signs of love to him.
This morning I have to bath him and I do wonder what will happen then.
Don't know what I am asking for really, but just needed to share with people who might have some understanding and empathy.
Jeannette
My husband is terminally ill with prostate cancer but still able to walk about with a frame and not in any pain.
He also has AD reasonably advanced now, and is incontinent.
He has not really known me for a long time now, but is still aware tht Jeannette lives here somewhere, generally upstairs ( although we live in a bungalow). He knows he is married to Jeannette most of the time, but sometimes thinks he is married still to his first wife although he knows they have split up!!!
Anyway he has now decided he quite fancies the new carer he has ( ME). He is leading up to somewhere I do not want to go!!
My husband would never have betrayed me, he knows how much that would hurt me as my first husband did just that. My husband is/was an honourable man .
I am finding now I am only relaxed when he is asleep or when I am out.
I need the strength from somewhere and the ability to divert him.
I have thought of saying that members of staff are not allowed to become too attached to the " patients" . Emotionally I feel I am at breaking point though, this is what I am finding it hard to deal with.
It is possible I have given him the wrong impression as sometimes when I am washing him and dressing him I do kiss his neck. It seems so awful not to be able to show signs of love to him.
This morning I have to bath him and I do wonder what will happen then.
Don't know what I am asking for really, but just needed to share with people who might have some understanding and empathy.
Jeannette