Hello All,
I was so very tired last night I actually went to bed at 8.30 !!! mind you it is not really much earlier than I have been going lately, I am so lonely at night that I think sleep is the only think that will chase the emptiness away. A bit like an ostrich. Life has so little meaning now, that evryday is so much the same and I just go through the motions of living. I do sound very dramatic, when I should be grateful for what I do have, I still have George albeit in body and flesh only.
On the brighter note, I brought him home yesterday and had a pretty nice afternoon. We sat and watched a bit of TV and he nodded off for a wee while holding my hand, it was nice to have him holding my hand while watching TV, we used to do that every night. We were always too busy during the day to sit down, so evening was our time to relax. I have not sat in the room we sat in or on the sofa in there since he went into the CH, I know this sounds so silly.
He had a good old wander in the house, every room picked things up and seemed to know his way around very well. For a short couple of hours it was so nice to have company in this empty house. It was a lovely day, but very windy so we did not go into the garden, when we were going out to get the taxi, I asked him if he thought I was keeping the garden tidy enough. He agreed I was.
For the first time, he was not overly keen to go into the CH, seemed a bit agitated, and when I sat him down at the table for his tea, there was a wee bit of frustration creeping in. I hope the 'five o'clock shadow' as I call it is not reappearing. I must admit I was not quite so happy as I have been over the past few days, but I am sure after his tea the girls would manage to settle him. I hope, I hope, I hope.
Between that and the unsettling news about Pete from Lyn, last night was not one of my best.
Hey Ho today might be better.
Take care all,
All my love Margaret xx