Hi Jel
Sorry I haven't replied before, have been a bit of an ostrich lately!!
I too understand how you feel. My husband was diagnosed at 58 with Vas Dem, 6 years ago now, but he was OK for some time; forgetful, but with support, we did lots of things. My advice is enjoy the good times while you can! Don't wait until tomorrow.
I too struggled when the diagnosis was made, but over time, have had to accept where we are, but I know that isn't easy. I have learned that stressing about the future changes nothing, so I try to live for today.
Like you, I have no family on hand and had a few very good friends. My husband refused to go to a day centre or any AS meetings. He was in denial. If you can get to any meetings, it is good to meet people who are in the same situations you. I have made some strong friendship through AD.
I now need those friendships, as my husband is quite a poorly person now, but he is happy and well cared for, so I have to accept where we are.
This forum has been an amazing support for me; the times when I felt this was only happening to me, I found out I wasn't alone and that many others had been there before me, and some were still there! It is also somewhere you can be honest, because no one judges.
Keep posting and together we will be strong.
Jan x