My mother began suffering from dementia 13 years ago and has been in a care home for 11 years. She is now 97 and no longer talks but remains in bed most of the time, eating and sleeping well. But she does not know me and rarely responds to me. I have visited her every week for 8 years but am finding it increasingly difficult. I am suffering from depression, receiving treatment from my GP, was not sure what triggered it but now thinking it maybe caused by the grief Iam feeling. I know she would not want to be living like this but would be happy to leave this life now. I also know she would be terribly upset to know this is making me unhappy.
She has little wrong physically and I feel she could go on indefinitely. But I am finding it very hard to keep up a positive front as she is just existing but hardly living.
I feel guilty for feeling like this when she is the one who is suffering. Please can anyone suggest ways I can cope and come to terms with the situation. At the moment I am having a break from visiting her as I think this is what has caused my depression.
She has little wrong physically and I feel she could go on indefinitely. But I am finding it very hard to keep up a positive front as she is just existing but hardly living.
I feel guilty for feeling like this when she is the one who is suffering. Please can anyone suggest ways I can cope and come to terms with the situation. At the moment I am having a break from visiting her as I think this is what has caused my depression.