How long is a piece of string..... the longest unanswered question
Loss of a parent, or parents is devastating and no one can be prepared as it takes us all by surprise eventhough if we were truthfull always has to be expected.
In my case Dad died Christmas 2004 and left Mum. Mum was so angry with him for leaving her as she had always been the disabled and poorly one. Until we discovered that Dad had Dementia, he had been fit, healthy and very strong, he lost more than half his weight throughout the two and a half years of the disease, to our knowledge that is!
I have a cartoon picture of when Dad was at work in which he was depicted as the Gorilla in the Jungle Book story, he ended up around 6 stone in weight when he passed.
During that time Mum kept me so busy as others have said, it is good to be busy. Unfortunately I didn't have any 'me' time to grieve. I had also lost a Grand daughter of 10 months a month prior to Dad's passing but my parents took all my time up. The lead up to Dad going into Care was very traumatic, as he too was a runner, and I had a full time job going and collecting him from either Marks and Spencers, The Bus Garage, or the Key Shop. I had put posters up in his favourite places which worked - staff in those areas would call me up. It saved getting the police involved. He was always trying to get home - he had lived with me for about a year before that fatefull day when I gave up. The disease had beaten us!
Mum survived without him another 30 months. I then went for berevment counselling which made me cry for what seemed a long time.
I'd started attending a healing centre after Dad passed and when we visited a few days after Mum's death I'd been talking about how did my partner know that his parents had found one another, they had died in 1984 and 2000. It was a big worry to me. He said ask the question, so in my mind I did and a message came through the medium which told me that Mum had found the person in her locket and they were holding the baby. That makes me cry even now but it answered my question and gave me peace.
I'm not saying this is the answer for everyone or anyone else but just my experience on how I have now been able to move on!
Take care, love and hugs to all who read this and remember, there are many good memories still to hold you together with your loved ones whether they are near or far.
Thank you too TP for giving people an opportuntiy to get help and gain the strength to carry on as it does I know seem a lonely road at first.