im so afraid, my life is falling apart, im trying so hard to keep everything and everyone together and im losing the fight.
Mum is going downhill fast, more confused by the minute, each day brings a new problem.
My son who is 18 and has always been such a kind and loving boy has turned into a stranger - a monster, he fights continually with his sister who is 22, he cant get a job, he is out all day and night with his friends, he no longer talks to us, he never lets us know where he is, we only see him briefly, he is rude and aggressive - not the child i brought up.
I came home from work this lunchtime after a really stressful morning, to my daughter (home for lunch) and son shouting at each other... my son had slept till 12 and therefore Mum had not had her tablets breakfast or a drink ... he normally does this if im not here, he has never forgotten before, mum was awake but now simply doesnt think to get out of bed and do anything for herself, not even make a drink. My daughter was furious with him.
My son said he hated this house, hates living here and hates his life, and hates us too, he was crying, this big 6'3" strapping lad, i feel absolutely devestated, i chose to move us in here to look after my mum when dad died last year, we had a family talk and we all agreed, but clearly Tom is suffering, we all are i know that and i feel like its all my fault, what have i done - i dont have a family anymore, my kids dont get on now, theres always tension in the house. Hes roared off now in his car, my daughter has gone back to work, mums asleep and i feel like i cant go on.
I love them all so so much, my kids, my husband, and of course my poor dear mum. I miss my dad more each day.
It seems as if we just go from one disaster to another, last week my husband was rushed into hospital, luckily turned out to be only a kidney stone, but scarey just the same ... what is happening.... im just trying so hard to do my best for everyone and its not working, we are all so unhappy... im so sorry for this post but im alone and frightened of what is ahead, i just want things back to how they were.
Mum is going downhill fast, more confused by the minute, each day brings a new problem.
My son who is 18 and has always been such a kind and loving boy has turned into a stranger - a monster, he fights continually with his sister who is 22, he cant get a job, he is out all day and night with his friends, he no longer talks to us, he never lets us know where he is, we only see him briefly, he is rude and aggressive - not the child i brought up.
I came home from work this lunchtime after a really stressful morning, to my daughter (home for lunch) and son shouting at each other... my son had slept till 12 and therefore Mum had not had her tablets breakfast or a drink ... he normally does this if im not here, he has never forgotten before, mum was awake but now simply doesnt think to get out of bed and do anything for herself, not even make a drink. My daughter was furious with him.
My son said he hated this house, hates living here and hates his life, and hates us too, he was crying, this big 6'3" strapping lad, i feel absolutely devestated, i chose to move us in here to look after my mum when dad died last year, we had a family talk and we all agreed, but clearly Tom is suffering, we all are i know that and i feel like its all my fault, what have i done - i dont have a family anymore, my kids dont get on now, theres always tension in the house. Hes roared off now in his car, my daughter has gone back to work, mums asleep and i feel like i cant go on.
I love them all so so much, my kids, my husband, and of course my poor dear mum. I miss my dad more each day.
It seems as if we just go from one disaster to another, last week my husband was rushed into hospital, luckily turned out to be only a kidney stone, but scarey just the same ... what is happening.... im just trying so hard to do my best for everyone and its not working, we are all so unhappy... im so sorry for this post but im alone and frightened of what is ahead, i just want things back to how they were.