Thanks everyone. I did switch off and sleep right through until the alarm went off. It has been a rollercoaster of a day since then though.
The personal carer has been sent off with a flea in her ear because she had no idea how to bed wash Alan and she asked me to hold him standing up so that she could wash his bottom and cream it. It was so distressing to him and then his knees gave in and he collapsed onto the sofa
I said I wanted her to report back to her agency and get them to send two people rather than one who are able to do this job and who know what they are doing.
The MacMillan occupational therapist then arrived and she was lovely. She is going to send in a physiotherapist and a dietician and get an air mattress in.
The District Nurse came and set up a box with all the predicted medication that might be needed any time now
She will make sure that I get 2 personal carers three times a day and that they are ones that know what they are doing
There was then the most special time when Alan was crying. It made me cry and so we cried together just holding each other. I told him I loved him and he cried again. It was a special time and it did feel like he was saying goodbye to me
Then a few moments later he was looking out of the window with a strange look on his face and it made me think of when people say they saw a light or relative or angel and he then smiled several times at whatever it was he was seeing.
The GP came and talked me through possible meds over the weekend and about possible scenarios
Alan will have a canula fitted tomorrow so that he can get what he needs when he needs it.
The District Nurse has just phoned to say that I have night sits tonight, tomorrow, Sunday and Tuesday and Wednesday of next week so far
The air mattress will come tomorrow and thanks to some of you I'm already prepared for the buzz or humm of the motor
My brain is now in overload so I am going to relax for a while.
Love