thank you all for your words of support.Am still trying to get the answers from the doctors and get my head strait. I should know better ive been in this dark place many times before but usually all by my self I just happend to be on the net looking for information about my mums meds when i decided to click on talk point and you lot got some of my troubles laid bear.I usually keep them to my self or in the past talked to the alzheimer's society but for some reason had not got the right advice or support at that time so i stopped bothering to talk to them and just muddled along by my self not that i blame them because they can be good help they told me about talk point.In the early hours or was it late hours as i could not sleep of this morning i did write down all the problems i was having with the med team and the social services but when i came to post it on talk point my computer decided to crash so all of it was lost "typical". So some time in the near future i will try again just at the moment my heads in bits and i cannot focus properly. At the moment im having my own health problems to deal with as well but that's another story. just hope my socialist when i finally get to see him dose not give me more bad news.Ive just got to hang in there for my mums sake.So chin up