Sorry, I just needed to share my feelings.
Mum's beem ill since the beginning of June, admitted to hospital mid June and still there.
Today, I can't help feeling resentful perhaps even selfish about how this disease is effecting my life. I feel that my life has been snatched away. I just revolve around work, hospital visits, trying to look after my family who I know are being neglected the most. This disease has just taken over and is effecting every thing I do. It sounds really bad but I want my life back. I want to be me again not just another victim of Alzheimers. I feel that this is only the beginning of long journey and today I just feel unable to cope. This makes me feel guilty as its my Mum who has the illness not me.
I'm tired of having to try to find the answers, of having to make the right choices. I just want some one to make this nightmare go away.
I know tomorrow is another day and somehow I'll get through it and not every day will feel as bad as I feel today.
But today is my low point, I don't want to have to be strong anymore.
Lanie
Mum's beem ill since the beginning of June, admitted to hospital mid June and still there.
Today, I can't help feeling resentful perhaps even selfish about how this disease is effecting my life. I feel that my life has been snatched away. I just revolve around work, hospital visits, trying to look after my family who I know are being neglected the most. This disease has just taken over and is effecting every thing I do. It sounds really bad but I want my life back. I want to be me again not just another victim of Alzheimers. I feel that this is only the beginning of long journey and today I just feel unable to cope. This makes me feel guilty as its my Mum who has the illness not me.
I'm tired of having to try to find the answers, of having to make the right choices. I just want some one to make this nightmare go away.
I know tomorrow is another day and somehow I'll get through it and not every day will feel as bad as I feel today.
But today is my low point, I don't want to have to be strong anymore.
Lanie