It's been a nice day. My neighbour came to invite us to a party, a friend called round with a present for the new grand daughter and finally I was able to chat to my neighbour about how to improve my garden. Problem is that OH has not felt well and he's been asleep most of the day and he has no desire to even walk around the garden. The sun is streaming through the trees making everything so lovely but he has no interest. He's gone back to sleep now. Anything I suggested, a walk round the garden, (it's very small but I love it), a walk down the road, or even a run out has been met with sad, lost blue eyes. So sad . I'm crying into my glass of wine. I want us to be happy. Even just a few hours.....why is he so lost ? I want to do the right thing. Why can't I put it right.
Sorry all a bit pathetic but you know making other people happy has been my reason d'etre and it's not going well ....
Sorry all a bit pathetic but you know making other people happy has been my reason d'etre and it's not going well ....