Have talked to mums doctor about taking her off her supplements, which she did on Monday after agreeing with me that enough was enough. Mum is a little over four and a half stone, doubly incontinent, mostly bed ridden and pretty much unable to talk.
I'm worn out with trying to keep everything normal for the rest of the family, she is constantly on my mind and I'm tired of crying. I just want it to be over.
Called in today and the manager wants to call the end of life team, so I feel we are in those final stages, but it's so hard it could be a few months yet and I really am not sure how much more I can take. Hubby is trying to be supportive but is not good at being empathetic, I feel he doesn't understand just how far my mum has deteriorated since he last saw her.
Thing is that I have always been the one who does everything, who sorts everything out and all I want to do is pull the duvet over my head until it's all over, but I won't, I'll still visit once a week, I'll still do all the running around and dealing with stuff and I am sure in a couple of days I'll feel a bit better. So tired of this limbo.
Sorry just needed to have a bit of a moan.
I'm worn out with trying to keep everything normal for the rest of the family, she is constantly on my mind and I'm tired of crying. I just want it to be over.
Called in today and the manager wants to call the end of life team, so I feel we are in those final stages, but it's so hard it could be a few months yet and I really am not sure how much more I can take. Hubby is trying to be supportive but is not good at being empathetic, I feel he doesn't understand just how far my mum has deteriorated since he last saw her.
Thing is that I have always been the one who does everything, who sorts everything out and all I want to do is pull the duvet over my head until it's all over, but I won't, I'll still visit once a week, I'll still do all the running around and dealing with stuff and I am sure in a couple of days I'll feel a bit better. So tired of this limbo.
Sorry just needed to have a bit of a moan.