My mother is in hospital recovering from a fractured neck of the femur. My husband and I went in yesterday which was a week after her op. She has been more confused than normal but there has been a slight improvement at this stage....but she is still cognitively worse than is normal for her. She is not doing much physio yet, only a little with a ward therapist. I am hoping she will go to a rehab centre when she leaves the hospital.
My older cousin, who is about 10 years younger than my mother, went in to see her today. She used to be a nurse. This is the first time she has actually seen my mother since some time before the pandemic began and before Mum actually got her diagnosis. I have told this cousin that my Mum now has dementia and things have been hard. Before she visited today I told her that Mum was more confused than normal. This cousin reported back to me tonight to say that she stayed 2 and three quarter hours with my mother and was able to help her in many ways and even got the nurse to find a wheelchair to get her to a toilet and that she is fine and wasn't confused at all!
Apart from the fact that my husband witnesses what I witness and agrees with what I see about my mother's confusion, I would feel like I am going quite mad. Why is it only me(and him...and our son) who see it? Could she be only doing the dementia confusion for me, for us? It makes me feel judged for saying that my mother has dementia - that awful daughter who keeps making out that she is worse than what she is.
Sorry this is a bit of an emotive rant. I will say that I have had somewhat of a rest whilst my mother is in hospital - which is my guilty but honest truth. Before this fall, and breaking of her femur near the hip, I did not visit my Mum all of the time but it had become approximately every other day, more recently virtually every day to sort something out. However my connection to her, my being on duty is constant....in terms of responding to her problems, communicating with the care agency, taking her for appointments, going to make a shopping list(because she now get's confused making it), then getting her shopping, speaking to her GP, getting her blister packs amended, taking her for coffee or lunch sometimes. I do it out of duty and to alleviate my guilt. My relationship with my mother has had some turbulent times throughout my lifetime.