Thinking of you, Hazel. Has anything happened today to make you so upset, or is ist the accumulation of things that have happened in the last few days and weeks?
I know the helplessness is awful for us carers and if we feel things have taken out of our hands, it's even worse.
Sending you smiles and hugs and hope tomorrow will be better.
I don't know what has happened today but I am sure that no matter what the next day brings you will have the courage to bear what you must and will be able to deal with all that this life will throw at you.
You will find the strength to do what you must eventhough all feels so out of control now. Not knowing is a really hard cross to bear and eventhough I am aware and accepting of what must happen I am also fearing as it is something over which I exercise no control.
In a strange way this time really mirrors for me the end of a pregnancy. Just wish that we were given some of the nice relaxing hormones that make us less panicky at that time to deal with the "now"!!
Thinking of you tonight and sending some virtual hugs your way. If I was closer I'd pop round and a cuppa with you!
I was so very sad to hear your devastating news. I can't even begin to imagine how you both must be feeling. Hazel, please remember to also take care of yourself, John needs your love and care more now then ever before.