My mum is in a care home, while I look after my brother till he gets housing support as I could not look after both of them. The nurse in the care home ask how long mum was staying as she only book in for 28 days ,that put me in a panic as its been 2 weeks already .so I was stressing & phoning up brother CPN . Anyway when I went to see the manger of the care home ,she told me the nurse should not of told me that & can stay as long as it take , in a conversation I was having with her ,she told me that I should look to the future , meaning mum staying in the home for good .I said ,but mum wants to come home she replied they all say that . What it is if I am truthful to myself & not to scared to say it to you all , I don’t want to look after mum any more & I feel so bad about that , I can not bring myself to ring mum social working .scared to admit it to mum scare of those emotion of letting go .then I change my mind & want mum back . I can not cope mentally if mum came home, I know mum can’t help it ,but it’s the paranoia, clinging, not being able to share moments with my teenager, without mum wanting me to be with her, following me all around if I am gone for 2 min, calling my name now she in the home in a room of her own she does not mind ,but with me if I am not in the same room when at home she will not settle. Why is that anyway? as in staying in room alone in care home & not when at home with me ?