Hi I am new to this forum and i have been reading many of the postings and i must say i have gained much comfort in the feeling that i am not alone and the guilt at some of my frustration and anger has subsided a little. I look after my mum in law along with my husband. she was diagnosed with alzheimers a while ago and things are very stressful for all 3 of us. We live with my mum in law so we have the illness 24/7. I have been struck several times my her and have ended up with a black eye on more than one occasion. My husband is very reluctant to get us any help but i am ashamed to say i have requested a carers assessment and asked my doctor for help in a bid to stop us falling apart. I love my mum in law very much and she has been an exceptional friend to me whe she was well but the illness has obliterated any sign of the person she was and i find myself very resentful and angry with her. Sometimes I see a sign of my old friend and it breaks my heart and i hate myself for the anger i have. i will continue to read the posts on here and gain some comfort from them. Thank you