reading everyone’s posts of how they are all struggling with caring for their OH at home and remembering how desperate I was when in the same situation - I feel I should be grateful that now he is in care I have a much easier life. Physically yes but emotionally no. It’s so hard watching the man you love deteriorating so fast. You think you have got a hold on it then suddenly the grief hits you like a thunderbolt and even months after he went into the home I find myself howling and missing the man I expected to still be with. I’m sorry to whine but I am just so very very unhappy. When does it get easier? How do I learn to live with the situation?