Well its done - and actually was less traumatic and emotional than I thought it would be. I had a stream of Carers and other members of Staff visiting me whilst I packed up what I was taking, several cups of coffee and as it was nearly lunchtime a request from the kitchen as to what I wanted in my sandwich today. I then progressed to the supermarket to stock up for the visitation of my SIL tomorrow and that's when it hit me full in the face. I will not have to buy any more choc buttons, fruit jellies, toiletries, lemon squash and all the other little treats I regularly took with me to the NH for my husband. I was in tears at the checkout but the girl was wonderful having only just said goodbye to her Father a few months ago.
But better still and you will all be so very proud of me - I have booked the Crematorium for Thursday 22nd January - 3 p.m. - my husband's birthday as I wanted and what's more I have also reserved the local Hotel round the corner from home for the Wake. We held our thirtieth Wedding Anniversary there so it will bring back fond memories. Don't and won't care whether she likes it or not!
Well that's me tuckered out so taking myself to bed with a hot water bottle, good book and the doglet plus of course, the obligatory G & T. Don't care whether or not the suns over the yardarm today.