Not as good a day today, it started off ok with us colouring and watching a tv programme we all like but it went down hill in the afternoon. Mum got fidgety about 3.30 and then after a while she said I think I'll get off home. She thought she had walked to ours and was going to walk back home even though she didn't know where she lived but she said she thought she'd find it. She was convinced she'd walked up here herself via her mums street which she also didn't know where that was only house number not street and didn't know where my house was.
I asked why she wanted to go home and she just kept saying I don't know and then eventually said she thought she'd go home before it was dark so she wasn't walking home in dark. She seemed quite confused as to where she was, where going, or why but she still wanted to go. I told her she normally stays for dinner but she said it didn't matter she wasn't bothered. She wouldn't listen to us say she usually stays till after dinner, or that I cook it for her and we'd take her home in the car the same as we'd brought her in car.It got more confusing with her talking about her mums house and her house and she could sort own tea out and she walked here and would walk back and would recognise the way when she set off.
I got quite frustrated with her lack of reason and not listening to us and I was quite blunt telling her she couldn't walk home as too far, she didn't know way, she doesn't make her own dinner and we had planned to take her home after it like we usually do. She didn't understand what I meant but put her bag and colouring things back down and sat back, but she looked fed up.
I felt really bad and still do about being blunt with her and letting my frustration show, I don't know why it did today as we have similar things often but today it got to me more than normal. I did apologise for being grumpy and blunt and she said it was ok but it took about half an hour for her to relax again and start chatting again.
Just before we had dinner she asked if I knew where she lived and if I would take her and would I go in with her, which I said yes to all three and then she said shall I go now. I told her that dinner was on so we'd go after that and she said oh yes ok. We had dinner and then about half six we set off to take her home, on the way she was asking where she lived and when I told her her address she said Oh ok am not going to my mums then. She was ok when we got in the house though and after we'd put her tv on talked about what was on and arranged going over in morning she waved us off asking me to ring her when I got in.
When I rang and said I was back home now she asked where I'd been. She didn't know she'd been with us or that we'd just took her home and she'd told me to ring, then she said Do you know yer nannans died. She thought she had to go to the funeral and as usual started asking when she'd died, whether she had left stuff there and she was sure she'd gone there last week. Then she said oh I'm all confused and mixed up sorry love. I tried to reassure her and told her not to worry about it tonight she'd remember tomorrow it was just cos she was tired and then tried to distract her by talking about tv as she'd been looking forward to watching Jane Mcdonald cruising and after another little go of where had I been and where had she been we moved on to seeing each other tomorrow and we said night.
She rang about half an hour later and asked if she'd been at mine and then started again telling me about her mum dying so I tried again to answer her questions and she said again she was confused and asked why so I tried to reassure her about being confused tonight and said to try not to worry and she'd remember tomorrow and suggested she try relax and watch something nice on tv. She said ok then asked if i was going over tomorrow and I said yes in the morning and then we said night.
She rang again ten minutes later and said I don't want you coming over on bus Andie. I told her I wasn't going on bus cos hubby would bring me and she said she didn't want me going if I had to go on bus just in case. I told her again I wouldn't and that hubby was taking me now cos he's working from home and she said Oh yes he is sorry I forgot I said Thats ok. Then she asked if I'd been today and when I said yes she said she didn't know if seen me but she was confused tonight. I tried again to tell her it was just cos tired and to try to relax and not worry about it and she said ok and again said see you tomorrow and night.
Its so hard hearing her confused and thinking she is upset but not knowing what to do to settle her.
I asked why she wanted to go home and she just kept saying I don't know and then eventually said she thought she'd go home before it was dark so she wasn't walking home in dark. She seemed quite confused as to where she was, where going, or why but she still wanted to go. I told her she normally stays for dinner but she said it didn't matter she wasn't bothered. She wouldn't listen to us say she usually stays till after dinner, or that I cook it for her and we'd take her home in the car the same as we'd brought her in car.It got more confusing with her talking about her mums house and her house and she could sort own tea out and she walked here and would walk back and would recognise the way when she set off.
I got quite frustrated with her lack of reason and not listening to us and I was quite blunt telling her she couldn't walk home as too far, she didn't know way, she doesn't make her own dinner and we had planned to take her home after it like we usually do. She didn't understand what I meant but put her bag and colouring things back down and sat back, but she looked fed up.
I felt really bad and still do about being blunt with her and letting my frustration show, I don't know why it did today as we have similar things often but today it got to me more than normal. I did apologise for being grumpy and blunt and she said it was ok but it took about half an hour for her to relax again and start chatting again.
Just before we had dinner she asked if I knew where she lived and if I would take her and would I go in with her, which I said yes to all three and then she said shall I go now. I told her that dinner was on so we'd go after that and she said oh yes ok. We had dinner and then about half six we set off to take her home, on the way she was asking where she lived and when I told her her address she said Oh ok am not going to my mums then. She was ok when we got in the house though and after we'd put her tv on talked about what was on and arranged going over in morning she waved us off asking me to ring her when I got in.
When I rang and said I was back home now she asked where I'd been. She didn't know she'd been with us or that we'd just took her home and she'd told me to ring, then she said Do you know yer nannans died. She thought she had to go to the funeral and as usual started asking when she'd died, whether she had left stuff there and she was sure she'd gone there last week. Then she said oh I'm all confused and mixed up sorry love. I tried to reassure her and told her not to worry about it tonight she'd remember tomorrow it was just cos she was tired and then tried to distract her by talking about tv as she'd been looking forward to watching Jane Mcdonald cruising and after another little go of where had I been and where had she been we moved on to seeing each other tomorrow and we said night.
She rang about half an hour later and asked if she'd been at mine and then started again telling me about her mum dying so I tried again to answer her questions and she said again she was confused and asked why so I tried to reassure her about being confused tonight and said to try not to worry and she'd remember tomorrow and suggested she try relax and watch something nice on tv. She said ok then asked if i was going over tomorrow and I said yes in the morning and then we said night.
She rang again ten minutes later and said I don't want you coming over on bus Andie. I told her I wasn't going on bus cos hubby would bring me and she said she didn't want me going if I had to go on bus just in case. I told her again I wouldn't and that hubby was taking me now cos he's working from home and she said Oh yes he is sorry I forgot I said Thats ok. Then she asked if I'd been today and when I said yes she said she didn't know if seen me but she was confused tonight. I tried again to tell her it was just cos tired and to try to relax and not worry about it and she said ok and again said see you tomorrow and night.
Its so hard hearing her confused and thinking she is upset but not knowing what to do to settle her.