Our Christmas has been **** i have cried so much there is a flood warning in our area.
Mum has excelled herself in the angry aggressive stakes as she was so mixed up she didn't know her **** from her elbow and apparently neither did I!!!
Everything i said was wrong.
I know that propably sound nasty and uncaring but I am so low and upset. I just want to rant and put it all down somewhere.
Christmas eve was hard work as I was the friend again and then when we arrived at my house mum went looking for me and would not accept anything hubby or I said, getting angry and upset.
Eventually she did slowly become calmer as day went on so by mid evening she had calmed and wasn't too bad. She slept ok overnight but unfortunately the pressure pad I put on her bed seemed to be clicking constantly when mum first went to bed so we didn't dare turn the chime on the reveiver on as it would be going all night. I think I had not got the placement right and she must have only just been on it. That meant I darent put my ear plugs in and hubby heavy breathed and snored his way through the night meaning I only got the odd ten minutes sleep and I was already tired from before so I was shattered on christmas morning and woke up teary.
Present opening went ok but after her shower mum was mixed up again thinking she was at my sisters with 'friend' and was ready to leave and going to my house. So we had an hour or so of confusion, anger and upset while I tried to prepare dinner.
Dinner went ok though it was pretty quiet, but an hour or so after lunch mum was questioning and getting annoyed again.
Hubby went to lie down with a thumping head late afternoon and for the hour and half he was up there mum was asking if he was ill, had he took some tablets, should she ring Andie and hubby to take her home as she yet again thought we were the friends. She was mixed up and upset because she couldn't remember where she was and so was I. When hubby got up and had something to eat as he hadnt wanted tea earlier, he was friends hubby and she asked him same things, still not believing either of us for long.
Then she wanted go to the loo so I took her up and then ten minutes later she wanted to go again (ongoing bowel trouble) when she came out of loo she got her bags from spare room and when I asked why, she said she thought she was going home. That sparked an argument with her saying she was at my sisters and she was going home, which I said no mum we're staying here again today, to which she started shouting about not staying here and going to Andies (me) I snapped that I was Andie, so then she was going home because I shouted at her, then it was because she wanted go to loo and didn't want to go here.
Apparently she had been suffering with constipation ALL day and been up and down to loo since the morning. Which was not true but we are liars and if we didn't take her home she would go alone. Then she was back to leaving because I had shouted so eventually we ended up giving in and in floods of tears I packed my things back up to and hubby drove mum and I back to mums at ten o'clock and hubby went back home alone.
There was more mixed up questioning and aggression telling me I was wrong when we were back at mums and more hiding in thr loo in floods of tears for me.
This morning mum was very subdued and asking if I still liked her and why she had shouted at me last night, she thought she had upset me but didnt know why. She was sorry and worried I wouldn't look after her now and hubby wouldn't let her come to our house anymore and would hate her. It was very sad and I felt very sorry for her.
After our showers she was back in her usual aggressive after shower state and grumpy with everything I said until I helped her put her christmas presents away and hubby came to pick us up for our house.
She was quiet for first hour here over lunch which she enjoyed but then she started asking about her tablets for UTI as yesterday and today she has said its stinging when she wees and she has decided I am giving her the antibiotics wrong as she is POSITIVE she should have two at a time because she ALWAYS does that and I never have tablets so I don't know anything about them and she will take care of her own prescriptions in future!
And now I'm back to being the friend and her asking me where our Andrea is.
Hubby is really sad and fed up and is worried about me. He was really upset and worried during my constant crying yesterday and says we can't go on like this. He really wanted me to stay with him for Christmas and was upset he was left alone last night and I had to stay with mum while mum and I were so upset.