My mother passed away at the end of November. I haven't been as tearful as I thought I would be.Sure, I have days that I feel abandoned, but it's not always the case that I am teary. What I feel now is adrift , tho'. Even while looking after mum, I felt pessimistic about my future prospects- being the wrong side of 60, no great savings, a job that doesnt satisfy but not sure any other one
would be any better. But, while looking after mum, all of that was under the surface. My main role was caring for her. With her gone now, I am more at a loss than ever, without that role, difficult tho' it was ,to anchor me. I think it is more the case that mum's death has made me more aware of my underlying feelings, than that it is necessarily related to her. I know I don't want to take any antidepressants. I tried them 2 years ago and felt much worse afterwards.
would be any better. But, while looking after mum, all of that was under the surface. My main role was caring for her. With her gone now, I am more at a loss than ever, without that role, difficult tho' it was ,to anchor me. I think it is more the case that mum's death has made me more aware of my underlying feelings, than that it is necessarily related to her. I know I don't want to take any antidepressants. I tried them 2 years ago and felt much worse afterwards.