You can take great consolation from being there at the end. I found the time I spent at my mum's deathbed precious. She was safe in bed; I wasnt worried about her as I was at home, in case she fell again. I think time spent at a loved one's side like that is really special. There will still be dificult days ahead- my mum passed away at the end of November and after feeling relief at being spared the constant anxiety over her, now I think back to the times before dementia. You need to remember the good things. Take care