Hello everyone,
Sorry it appears to all gloom and doom at the moment doesnt it, but thanks goodness for this site and people who truly understand what we are all going through (spouses, daughters, sons, etc). Well I went to see mum and dad today to have a word with dad to see how he felt about moving into the home full-time. I got there and he was slumped on the sofa, mum had just managed to get him downstairs. I got there and asked him how we was and he said 'not good'. Mum then said look i'll take you back up to bed and he said yes. Well I left them to it and after about 5 mins checked to see what was happening. Mum was struggling on the stairs with him. He was just slumped over the steps and they could easily have both fallen. Mum is very upbeat (it is her way of coping) and was trying to get him up. It took me from behind and mum to get him up the final step and then he just collapsed on the floor at the top, wanting to sleep there. It is SO awful to see the rapid decline in dad in just the last few weeks (since the pneumonia). He was going out before on his own to town to meet his friends for coffee and now .... To see my dad like that just crushed me and I truly dont know how many keeps it together - I dont know if I could be that strong - I am finding it so hard at the moment. All I seem to want to do is burst into tears. It almost feels as bad as it did when we first realised he had AD - that grieving process you go through then.
Anyway, I really had to get all that off my chest. Thanks for listening and sorry if I rambled I just needed to get it out.
Snooky x
Sorry it appears to all gloom and doom at the moment doesnt it, but thanks goodness for this site and people who truly understand what we are all going through (spouses, daughters, sons, etc). Well I went to see mum and dad today to have a word with dad to see how he felt about moving into the home full-time. I got there and he was slumped on the sofa, mum had just managed to get him downstairs. I got there and asked him how we was and he said 'not good'. Mum then said look i'll take you back up to bed and he said yes. Well I left them to it and after about 5 mins checked to see what was happening. Mum was struggling on the stairs with him. He was just slumped over the steps and they could easily have both fallen. Mum is very upbeat (it is her way of coping) and was trying to get him up. It took me from behind and mum to get him up the final step and then he just collapsed on the floor at the top, wanting to sleep there. It is SO awful to see the rapid decline in dad in just the last few weeks (since the pneumonia). He was going out before on his own to town to meet his friends for coffee and now .... To see my dad like that just crushed me and I truly dont know how many keeps it together - I dont know if I could be that strong - I am finding it so hard at the moment. All I seem to want to do is burst into tears. It almost feels as bad as it did when we first realised he had AD - that grieving process you go through then.
Anyway, I really had to get all that off my chest. Thanks for listening and sorry if I rambled I just needed to get it out.
Snooky x