My husband was in a residential home when covid struck. I couldn't visit for ages or take him out for walks. There were no stimulating events like singing, exercise and crafts because of infection control. At Christmas, he got covid and spent 3 weeks in hospital. It left him unable to walk or feed himself and physio wasn't considered because he had dementia. I was not consulted about his wishes, but a lit of drugs and treatment were invested in saving him from dying. Then, any post covid support, as a mentally fit person would have received, was not entertained.
He is now in a Nursing Home and I am finding it harder and harder to visit. I get very tearful and feel it would have been better if he had died of covid and was now playing golf in that course in heaven. Am I a bad person? Why do I feel like this? I do this on my own as I don't want to bite my friends. My family lives across the water and my husband only has one other relative. If he was my dog, I'd have taken him to the vet.
He is now in a Nursing Home and I am finding it harder and harder to visit. I get very tearful and feel it would have been better if he had died of covid and was now playing golf in that course in heaven. Am I a bad person? Why do I feel like this? I do this on my own as I don't want to bite my friends. My family lives across the water and my husband only has one other relative. If he was my dog, I'd have taken him to the vet.