hi, I know how you feel, its hard, Phil rarely speaks, unlike Chris most of the time he just sits, though he has had a couple of days pacing, and yes its hard to visit, but I feel worse if I dont, I try and time my visits so that its not too long until lunch or dinner, then he is distracted when I leave, sometimes, I am only there 15 mins, if I cant get any response I sit for a while and then say goodbye, I used to go every day but now its every other so I have a break, occasionally he seemed really pleased to see me, when that happens its wonderful, and makes it easier to go in again for a while. Dont feel awful, its normal, I am sure we are not the only ones who struggle.