My grandad is now bed bound at the home and has entered his very last stage .
Today I visited him for the first time in almost 2 weeks as I live away. He's been in an out of hospital with various falls (falling out of bed) and infections. After each hospital stay he rallied a little with the help of the iv antibiotics and fluids. But now he's taken the biggest dip and they aren't going to give him any more anti biotics. He's been back in the home for about 10 days.
Today when I saw him, He's constantly asking for a drink, but when sips are given, juice through a straw, he's coughing terribly and getting very distressed. It ended up with him coughing uncontrollably and I thought This could be it. I felt I was to blame as I'd kept giving him the sips of drink he was begging me for.
It's obviously been going to his lungs and probably caused infection.
Then he was wailing and shouting in distress while the carers tried to make him comfortable. He'd soiled himself badly and it was all very distressing for him and I came away in shock. I just feel like I'm in a daze.
I hate seeing my poor Grandad so unwell, so immobile, so close to the end. I just hope when he does go, it won't be in the distressing state I saw today? Please no.
Today I visited him for the first time in almost 2 weeks as I live away. He's been in an out of hospital with various falls (falling out of bed) and infections. After each hospital stay he rallied a little with the help of the iv antibiotics and fluids. But now he's taken the biggest dip and they aren't going to give him any more anti biotics. He's been back in the home for about 10 days.
Today when I saw him, He's constantly asking for a drink, but when sips are given, juice through a straw, he's coughing terribly and getting very distressed. It ended up with him coughing uncontrollably and I thought This could be it. I felt I was to blame as I'd kept giving him the sips of drink he was begging me for.
It's obviously been going to his lungs and probably caused infection.
Then he was wailing and shouting in distress while the carers tried to make him comfortable. He'd soiled himself badly and it was all very distressing for him and I came away in shock. I just feel like I'm in a daze.
I hate seeing my poor Grandad so unwell, so immobile, so close to the end. I just hope when he does go, it won't be in the distressing state I saw today? Please no.