I have just had further visit from Social Services. So much to take in. What with care, visitors to check me and benefits. Social Services are talking about sheltered accomodation although they say that with the right help and care package it is possible to live as I am. Problem is Wife has Power of Attorney and even though she has left me they have to discuss everything with her. Neighbour knew where she is staying. I do not know where she is. We own our home and it seems as though she wants me out so I do not know what is going to happen yet as to my future living arrangements. I am being taken to the doctors this afternoon to get some help as I have sunk into a very deep depression and just cannot cope. Everything is so confused I cannot keep still and keep looking for my wife and am talking more to myself (I think) than usual. I am sorry I do not know what is going on I am so confused and rambling. I know my illness will/has been getting worse and I do not blame my wife for going. If she can get some happiness without having to watch me get worse then I am just thankfull for the time we had together. I have always and still will always love her as long as my memory lasts. Maybe it will turn out to be a blessing of sorts that I have this terrible disease.