hubby has been in care 11 months ,ive just put up the decorations and tree, but it suddenly hit me hubby wont be here for christmas, for the last 53 years we,ve spent christmas together,. so the tears started and the day seemed to get worse ,of course i will see him over the holidays but the big hole just dont seem to go away today so a few more tears,we are taking him to our sons every day of the holiday so im really lucky there,im sure some of you out there are feeling just the same but its so hard