So here l go again.
The tsunami of emotions hitting me.
On hearing that mum had passed away yesterday, the first wave of RELIEF hit me. Thank God that she was no longer suffering with this awful disease.
Followed by GUILT. How could l think that. Be relieved that mum had gone. Of course she was happy in her shrinking world.
Then the big one. PAIN. I'll never see her face again or hear that cheeky laugh.
ANGER's next to roll in. Why have l been robbed of someone so precious? My chats with her? Just sitting in her company? This time there's a new emotion. HATE. Hate of a virus that's robbed me of my mum. A virus that shouldn't even have been here.
I know in time, life becomes easier but for now l'll grieve for my mum but be consoled believing that she's back with my dad, busy catching up on seven years of gossip.
The tsunami of emotions hitting me.
On hearing that mum had passed away yesterday, the first wave of RELIEF hit me. Thank God that she was no longer suffering with this awful disease.
Followed by GUILT. How could l think that. Be relieved that mum had gone. Of course she was happy in her shrinking world.
Then the big one. PAIN. I'll never see her face again or hear that cheeky laugh.
ANGER's next to roll in. Why have l been robbed of someone so precious? My chats with her? Just sitting in her company? This time there's a new emotion. HATE. Hate of a virus that's robbed me of my mum. A virus that shouldn't even have been here.
I know in time, life becomes easier but for now l'll grieve for my mum but be consoled believing that she's back with my dad, busy catching up on seven years of gossip.