hubby has been gone into care now 8 months the visits are great mostly and we can take him out now to our sons for the Saturday afternoons, he really enjoys this and asks as soon as we all turn up are we going,and he doesnt mind going back to the care home,i was so worried about that when we took him out first. but when i get back home on my own things really hit home and i seem to spend a lot of my time now getting upset just like when he went first,i say im ok but at times even i dont think im ok should i be so upset after all this time surely i should be getting used to it, but 52 years together i cant just forget knowing he will not come home again so putting on a brave face and carrying on