Hi all again
Just when I thought things were going reasonably well we've had more setbacks. SS mislead us about the total amount that could be afforded for a care home for Dad so most of the places we've spent the last week looking at are out of reach, we just can't afford the top up fees. What a waste of time and energy but at least the first place we saw which seemed fine still has a place available, though I'm concerned that the dementia patients have been seperated from everybody else and it's a bit subdued there.
We were meant to be rehoming Dads dog this morning, we took her out of the kennels she's been in for the last 4 weeks but sadly the people she was meant to be going to already have two very boisterous dogs and they're worried that they will hurt Dads dog as she's a lot older so we've had to bring her home. We can't keep her so she's going to have to go to the RSPCA tomorrow. Dad would be devastated if he knew, I've already cried buckets today.
And I was judged over the phone by one of Dad's friends on Friday night for sending Dad into residential care - they've not seen him for a few years. All the guilt monsters have now raised their ugly heads again and I'm not sure if I can carry on with it all. I'm going to go and see Dad shortly and I don't think I'm going to be able to stop myself from crying in front of him, he'd been hallucinating badly again yesterday when I saw him.
What an awful disease.
AJay xxx
Just when I thought things were going reasonably well we've had more setbacks. SS mislead us about the total amount that could be afforded for a care home for Dad so most of the places we've spent the last week looking at are out of reach, we just can't afford the top up fees. What a waste of time and energy but at least the first place we saw which seemed fine still has a place available, though I'm concerned that the dementia patients have been seperated from everybody else and it's a bit subdued there.
We were meant to be rehoming Dads dog this morning, we took her out of the kennels she's been in for the last 4 weeks but sadly the people she was meant to be going to already have two very boisterous dogs and they're worried that they will hurt Dads dog as she's a lot older so we've had to bring her home. We can't keep her so she's going to have to go to the RSPCA tomorrow. Dad would be devastated if he knew, I've already cried buckets today.
And I was judged over the phone by one of Dad's friends on Friday night for sending Dad into residential care - they've not seen him for a few years. All the guilt monsters have now raised their ugly heads again and I'm not sure if I can carry on with it all. I'm going to go and see Dad shortly and I don't think I'm going to be able to stop myself from crying in front of him, he'd been hallucinating badly again yesterday when I saw him.
What an awful disease.
AJay xxx