I just really need to get this off my chest, it just feels that my mum is getting worse day by day and there is nothing I can do about it. And I feel I am getting upset by silly things that I know I shouldn't and I hate myself for it and feel I am letting my mum down, this weekend things are finally starting to hit me, mum is just constantly walking around the house during the day and won't sit down,she will sit down for a quick bite to eat and will be off again. She will want to go to the toilet and I will go to bring her in but then she says she does not like the bathroom and won't go to the toilet, and then the constant walking around the house starts again and she will always call out for me when she is at the far end of the house. We went to the supermarket today and people were looking at my mum and I wanted the earth to swallow me up, and I feel terrible for feeling like this. I know the strain is showing on my face and my mum picks up on this and I feel so guilty for this,because I know that she knows that I am upset. I try and speak quietly all the time but sometimes my voice is raised and I hate myself for it. My mum is having a rest at the moment and I am catching up with things around the house and I am glad that she is asleep and I feel terrible about feeling like this.