I keep having this thought in my head and I feel as if I’m hitting a barrier right now. I’ve managed to be fairly upbeat till now but I can’t bear the thought of living like this for much longer.
My partner is physically quite well and mobile. He has can no longer express himself at all and I reckon he has little understanding of what is said to him. He has urinary incontinence. He sleeps a great deal of the day. We might manage a short walk in the morning but then he dozes through the afternoon.I really have to do everything for him. I am lucky to have help with showering and he also goes to day care once a week.
I feel that my tolerance level is very low, I feel angry and frustrated a lot of the time. I feel guilty that I can’t do much to make things any better for him. I’m in this endless loop of resentment. I just feel like I’ve had enough and he is suffering because of this.
I’m sure these feelings are common but I can’t help thinking he deserves better than this grumpy bad tempered woman looking after him.
My partner is physically quite well and mobile. He has can no longer express himself at all and I reckon he has little understanding of what is said to him. He has urinary incontinence. He sleeps a great deal of the day. We might manage a short walk in the morning but then he dozes through the afternoon.I really have to do everything for him. I am lucky to have help with showering and he also goes to day care once a week.
I feel that my tolerance level is very low, I feel angry and frustrated a lot of the time. I feel guilty that I can’t do much to make things any better for him. I’m in this endless loop of resentment. I just feel like I’ve had enough and he is suffering because of this.
I’m sure these feelings are common but I can’t help thinking he deserves better than this grumpy bad tempered woman looking after him.