I'm still keeping my diary of visits to see Jan. Yesterday's reads: The older residents don't seem to have the same thing happen - or perhaps, since I never knew them before, I just accept them as they are. It is a continual challenge to me to be able to accept Jan as she now is. Gone are the days when she could crawl around her specially padded room. She can no longer do that, and we get more out of visits when she is in her chair. At least I get more out of the visits and it is less distressing for me, regularly to see her this way.