The sun is shining at last but I still feel sad and yes, as hard as it is to admit I feel very envious of those of my age just starting out on their retirement able to do all the things my OH and I had planned. Instead it is nearly a year since I had to admit I could no longer cope with him at home and made the heartbreaking decision to place him in a care home. He was going to retire this September and we were going to buy a bungalow and then do the travelling we had long talked about. Instead two diseases called Alzheimers Dementia and Parkinsons Disease stole this away from us in November 2010 when he was only 57. He had to stop work and we struggled to make ends meet on my part-time salary and his 2 occupational pensions/DLA ,eventually making the last mortgage payment in September 2014. Does anyone else feel hard done by like this or am I just acting like a spoiled brat? Instead of travelling the world celebrating our 40th wedding anniversary in September I have to visit a Care Home where most of the residents are 15-20 years older than my OH. I know I should be thankful that he is still with us (well his body is not sure where his mind is) for now but I know what is to come and I just feel so sorry for him and of course for myself as I face old age on my own.. Sorry to be so negative on such a sunny day!!