Does anyone feel like this? My Mum is in a CH now and although I'm still caring and going in every other day, I am adjusting to all the very bad and sad times and the depression I've lived with throughout the years. It feels like I've lived another life and I can't understand fully what's happened. It feels like post traumatic anxiety and I truly don't know how I functioned with everything, doing it all alone and bringing up my daughter. I hope my daughter will be ok having had her childhood affected by it, although I have always done my best. I just wonder if anyone else feels this strange sort of feeling and maybe it is just coming to terms with what has been a very unpredictable life for many years, justifying myself continually and desperately needing support from the healthcare system whilst poor Mum got worse, culminating with her section into hospital. It's all like a terrible dream.