....is the Mum here in this picture. It's the smiling lady who I took to London and whose photograph I took on the London Eye. It's the lady in the wedding hat, the lady on the beach. It's the lady in all the photographs in the box marked Mum.
It is not the image I have in my mind, that of an old lady, skin and bone, sticky eyed and hair unwashed.....
I've spent all week dealing with this and that, all the practicalities of a death and funeral. Someone asked my why or how I was coping so calmly. This bit is the easy bit...this is paperwork. I'm good at paperwork.
But I'm scared.....because when the paperwork is done, I'll have to start thinking about the emotional bits.......and then, I know it'll start to hurt.
I've followed most of Mum's requests ( except for missing one hymn out....it was beginning to look a bit like Songs of Praise). She's going into Church on Sunday March 8th and then Service on the Monday followed by the Crem and the Wake. Sister will be home from Africa for a couple of weeks so we can busy busy for a while.......but one day soon I'll have to think about a new direction for me...but not yet, not today.
Thank you all for your continued support. Love to you all, Maureen.x.x.
It is not the image I have in my mind, that of an old lady, skin and bone, sticky eyed and hair unwashed.....
I've spent all week dealing with this and that, all the practicalities of a death and funeral. Someone asked my why or how I was coping so calmly. This bit is the easy bit...this is paperwork. I'm good at paperwork.
But I'm scared.....because when the paperwork is done, I'll have to start thinking about the emotional bits.......and then, I know it'll start to hurt.
I've followed most of Mum's requests ( except for missing one hymn out....it was beginning to look a bit like Songs of Praise). She's going into Church on Sunday March 8th and then Service on the Monday followed by the Crem and the Wake. Sister will be home from Africa for a couple of weeks so we can busy busy for a while.......but one day soon I'll have to think about a new direction for me...but not yet, not today.
Thank you all for your continued support. Love to you all, Maureen.x.x.