currently grieving for my life lost-Im mid thirties but feel alot older, I have been caring for my mother a long time, I have nothing to show for all the hard years of work. People say I have the fact I cared for my mother but I feel a huge loss. I dont have my own home, job, I havent done much travelling, no relationships and I have missed out on having kids which I always wanted. This role has changed me completely. The effects of which I will probably feel for years to come. I also feel angry for my mother that this is how her life is gona end and anger at my family who didnt listen for years-telling me she needed to get used to living on her own, I needed to get a life, a job etc. Its an awful journey. We are considering a home next year as I feel I am coming to an end in my role. What comes for me next, who knows, its really scary.