Need to vent a bit. I'm scared. When I think about the future now all I see is what others go through and post about and everything just seems pointless. I might not even be here in 10 years time so what's the point in carrying on working and my relationship with my partner etc? I'm just going to end up a useless fool. Already there are things I could do last year and before but can't now and this thing is just going to take and take and take until there's nothing left of me but some newspaper cuttings, video clips and photos. Agggghhh!