About 10.20p.m. the phone went. Dreading that call from the Care Home, but thank God it was my eldest son who is out of remission from bowel cancer and has M.E. He asked what would I like to do, something for myself for a change. Have a complete rest after caring for 4 years for my husband and being disabled I have not had a respite break. Good said my son. We need some quality time together (daughter in law included) she is such an angel. My son and daughter in law watched the programme on T.V. and even my son apparently was crying knowing I had experienced that with my husband. So he has booked a two week holiday on the Norfolk Broads on a 14 foot boat. All expenses paid. Its called the Queen Elizabeth. They want quality time with me - no children, just me and them. The more Peter was talking about it the more excited I was becoming. Taking camrecorder and just having a break. Then my daughter in law was on the phone. Please say yes to coming Mum. As my son lives in Essex I do not see him very often although we regularly phone. Then I replied does he know how to steer this big boat ? He has had a lesson. Lisa he only wants the 2 of us to fill up the locks whilst he stands on the bridge with a Captain hat on and gives us orders. To which we both laughed. Then my mind went to my husband in the Care Home. If anything happened, they would take me to my husband. The more the conversation went on, I had to put my son first. He is very ill but wants quality time with his Mum. (Deep down inside I want to be with him), So I am going with them. I do not know how long my husband has and yet again I do not know or in my heart want to know how long my son has. Ignorance on this occassion I am convinced is best. Just thought I would let you know that I am having a break in September. Best wishes. Christine