After posting a reply to debbie13 on the forum I have read all the lovely replies, they made me cry! I have had a better day today, although I feel very fragile and am still obviously crying at all sorts of things that wouldn't normally bother me. My one concern is that everything seems to have been so rushed. Colin died on the 24 April, just over four weeks ago. There seems to have been no time to myself just to think about things, there was the post-mortem to wait for which took four days, then the arranging of the funeral etc took most of the second week. Then the funeral itself, all this time I had either family or my mum and dad with me. Next came half term and I had my youngest daugher of 11 at home for two weeks, we went out every day and kept busy, but no time to myself. This week I went back to work and we're very busy and I'm really afraid that I haven't had time to take all this in and that it's going to hit me hard a bit further on down the line. Am I right to just try and get back into a normal-ish routine and just have a good cry in the evenings when I do get a couple of hours to myself, I don't know. I'm afraid that I may be trying to pretend that Colin hasn't really died and things are OK. I suppose I need to take it a day at a time and see how I cope. But I will post again soon as it certainly helps to talk about it with other people who have gone through the same awful thing.